About me: I am a barefoot creatrix. Barefoot because I am usually found sans shoes – Creatrix because I am a woman who creates. I write, I take pictures, I create things with my hands, I share, I dream, I love, I believe, I birth, I dance, I learn and I listen. I seek truth, kindness, laughter, romance, awareness and beauty in the tiniest of moments. I long to live near water and in the trees. I love seaside towns when the fog rolls in and dressing in layers. Autumn is my favorite season. I was born in summer and am a watery Cancerian. I come alive under a full moon. The color turquoise hits my joy trigger. The scent of fresh basil instantly lifts my mood. I am an iPhone addict. I am highly attracted to funny people as well as soulful writers who weave words into cashmere. If you are either one of those things, or both, chances are I would have a mad crush on you if we were ever to meet. I am an introvert yet am also an open book, probably a bit too much of both for my own good, but I am learning to embrace these pieces of me. Some moments I feel like a desperate housewife, other moments I am a superhero. Either way, I am unraveling my stories and finding my truth within their chapters.
I hold a Fine Arts degree in Design and worked in both education and the entertainment industry for years in everything from HR to marketing to assisting and as a digital artist for movies. Society once told me this much movement on my resume made me flaky, I now know it means I am seeking my truth. I am grateful for all my career experiences as they revealed that I am happiest creating my own meaningful work which aligns with my values and serves others.
I’ve been with my husband, best friend and partner for fourteen years, a man who makes me laugh every single day; he also likes to cook – it feeds his soul. We currently live in Southern California with our two beautiful daughters, Isabella Wish & Mia Clover. Life for me truly began when these two little girls finally arrived. They were born and I was reborn… and revealed.
About this website – What is conscious connection about? I think the best way I can define what conscious connection means to me is to simply tell you a quick story about myself.
In April of 2011 I had somewhat of a breakdown. Not the kind of breakdown that warrants a padded room by any means but an awakening for sure, brought on by a desperate desire for change, and some sleep deprivation I imagine. I was feeling very trapped in my physical environment after 14 years and wanting so much more for my family. As a result, I was also feeling unplugged from my marriage, lost in my creativity, my spirituality, my direction, my finances, my identity and my connections. In short, I was feeling disconnected from my life and desperately needed a way to plug back in.
I write and blog as a way to release, connect, explore and illuminate what is happening to me in certain moments. I take pictures as a way to communicate how I see the world. I design jewelry using certain materials and mantras as a way to nurture the creative part of my spirit and soul. I cook for comfort… and used to drink too much wine at one time for the same reason. I notice that every August for the past 14 years my restless and reckless mind feels compelled to completely change up my physical environment in the form of painting walls, rearranging furniture, purging, etc.
My therapist calls these actions “healthy coping mechanisms”. I prefer to think of them as creating conscious connection. A way to keep me grounded in the present moment.
What happened to me in April was the catalyst to helping me to connect to what was directly in front of me, and simply starting there. Once I stopped trying to control the outcome of every situation I was able to awaken to awareness and that of simply being in the moment, trusting it was where I needed to be and it has shifted every area of my life in beautiful ways. I am grateful for the cracked areas of my life, they allow me to see the light, even in the dark places.
These past few months have allowed me to gather up so much of the emotional baggage I was carrying which was in no way serving me and releasing expectation at every turn as a way to just truly see the beauty that lies in front of me and within me. Letting go of fear (which ingeniously disguises itself as control, resistance, perfection and expectation) and stepping into now is my life’s work and my daily practice. This practice of gathering and releasing is a continuous cycle for each of us. Some days are easier than others; I like to take it moment by moment.
Each day is a journey and a new opportunity to let go and consciously connect to my life in very real and grateful ways, it’s not always easy but it’s always worth it. I don’t claim to have all the answers, or any for that matter, I simply consider my life my art, and I am working on becoming a better artist.
I created this space to share my ongoing and ever-evolving journey with you and for you. Right now it’s pretty empty and I am just starting to unpack my new space, but soon you will find workshops, tutorials, videos, interviews and all kinds of juicy nuggets. I write about connecting with self, spirit, soul, community, family, body, food, love, earth, home, business, money, the internet, relationships, parenting, art & creativity. Please sign up for my mailing list to receive even more juicy bits as well as a free downloadable iPhoneography tutorial {Coming soon!}. I’m thrilled that all of my “healthy coping mechanisms” are now being put to good use in a way that I hope you find useful.
Thank you for stopping by, I invite you to get comfy and return often.
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If you wish to find out more about me, you may visit my former online home here.
I welcome email at connectdeeper@gmail.com
